Why this blog exists...

This blog is a journal, a memento of my feelings, thoughts and personal experience of being a gestational carrier.

Monday, March 14, 2011

Time goes by so fast!

So I know I haven't updated in a while. Some people, I'm talking to you CPH apparently have nothing better to do than stalk my life. No just kidding. Seriously I guess the reason I haven't updated is because really not much is happening. Maybe I'm making too light of my situation.

Yes I am pregnant. I guess that would have been a good thing to post. However, I know that the few people that read this blog probably knew that so...meh..I didn't post it.

Plus to be honest I have been so extremely moody, which is so not me by nature that I feared typing something on here would sound either a) whiny, b)angry, c)even more whiny. So I steered clear until I could compose my thoughts.

I would be lying if I said I didn't mind taking all the medications or that I'm not nervous about al of this in some way. I mean I'm getting to the point where I don't want to inject a two inch long needle into my ass every day and sticking other pills up my vajayjay.

Don't get me wrong, I am thrilled beyond belief to be doing this but I am ready to be past this preliminary phase. I don't want to be soo tired beyond belief. And I am sick of being so edgy. Someone does one thing and I am about ready to bite their head off. I don't like feeling this way. I believe it is due to the medications. This is known to be a side effect. I hope it passes soon or I won't be able to be around people without screaming or crying or both. I almost broke down at work last week for no reason. I literally could not figure out why I felt like I was going to cry. It was embarrassing. Luckily no one saw me and I composed myself.

Now to the good things going on with all of this. So yes I found out I am pregnant. I am not 100% sure of a due date but I know that as of Tuesday March 15 I am 6 weeks pregnant. This should make me due right around the beginning of November. Not a bad time to have a baby. There really shouldn't be much snow, if any and I won't be sweltering hot like I was when I was pregnant with Simon. My HCG levels have been rising as they should and I have my first ultrasound on March 22nd. I should find out then whether there is more than one baby in there.

One woman who is on our surrogacy message board has found out that one of her embryos split and that she is having triplets. I empathize with her since I don't know what I would do in her situation. I really don't. Not that it would be entirely up to me. The parents would really have to make the critical decision whether to have all three or "selectively reduce" down to two. That is such a tough choice however the surrogate has extreme risks to herself and the babies if she carries all three. Yikes.

I personally think I am only carrying one. I just don't think both embies stuck...however I could be completely wrong. I am very excited to find out.

Update to come once I know more.

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